Patience, this complicated virtue (I)

I find myself struggling since I remember with patience, it is something that comes and imposes itself despite my unwelcoming attitude towards it. Perseverance is a virtue I understand since it carries some sort of action. Patience, on the contrary, feels claustrofobic and chronic (like a chronic pain...). These fragments I have collected are an effort to befriend it.

“There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you, and there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.”

Lemony Snicket, Horseradish